Vroom Vroom!....can someone give me a push?

Morning Party People!
                It's 1am and I just finished writing out the script for my current project which is.....::drum roll please::a kickstarter project for Frankie's Story!!
                That's right Party People , I'm taking the next baby step. I know this isn't the same as pitching a script to a studio but hey, it's a new world and I think Kickstarter could be a good thing for my story. I'll be filming the video tomorrow and hopefully I'll have it edited before I leave for the Open mic later that evening.
                Speaking of which, I think I'm getting better at the open mics out hear. That's not to say I've been killing, I haven't but I feel that every time I go up I learn more and get just a little bit better. One of my goals this years is to get a paying gig doing stand up, for how much? Who knows? All I know is that as much as I dig my part time work I know I don't want to spend the whole year doing either job.
                I was talking to Jennie earlier today about how one of my faults is I don't appreciate all the things I have in my life and that I try to show some sort of gratitude everyday. I was just thinking about how I wish I had been this motivated when I was in my twenties, maybe by now I'd be a professional actor or stand-up or whatever. What does it matter? If I had spent my twenties differently (or more productively for that matter) then I wouldn't be the artist that I am today. Meaning if I had started getting work acting right out of AMDA I don't know if I would have ever taken up writing. Had I not come to AZ back in 1999 I never would have met my friend Clay who got me into painting ,photography, and playing the guitar. With out those skills I never would have learned video editing so I guess in the end it all works out the way it's supposed to right?
                 I find looking back like that gives me solace in the choices I made. Give it a try sometime, only don't listen to The Cure while you do it, just trust me on this one.

Till Next Time Party People
Keep on a Chooglin!

::hic:: Um, you bet!

Evening Party People!
             Tonight's blog is sponsored in part by Kilt Lifter.

"Kilt Lifter Scottish Ale: Because F@*K that bitch who needs her!"

           So what's new? Well I finally have a new job. It's nothing too exciting but it's something that I've been looking forward to for a few years now. I now have a part time entry level position working at a uhaul rental center. It's awesome because I know nothing about that business and I have zero ambition to advance in that company! It's not a bad place to work by any means, as a matter of fact everyone has been super cool. I just now have a job that wont pull focus away from my other projects.
           Everyday is a great day to get something done! Now I seem to have an issue on keeping to a schedule which involves exercise, writing, music, entertainment and of course video editing. I think I'm going to have to start making a weekly schedule so I can keep on track. That or I have to get rid of my xbox.
           I've been getting a lot done when I don't have to go into my job, I feel better that's for sure, emotionally anyways. Physically I need to lose a bunch of weight, not that being thin will make me feel better, I just don't like not being as strong as I used to be. You see for a big guy like myself one of the few saving graces of being large is that you're more than likely stronger than people smaller than you (non athletes of course). As I get older I find that I can't do as much as I used to, I learned that my first week at uhaul as there is a lot of physical work in that job. There's a gym near by that's free for people who live in the community, maybe I should start there?
            It looks like I have a new habit to form, this is going to be tough as I hate not being able to east large amounts of candy at any given point in time. Oh well, tat way of living has never brought me the happiness I was looking for, all it did was give my the "happy" that I'd settle for.
            Another motivation is that my girlfriend has been losing a lot of weight, and if there's one thing I learned from watching all those weight loss shows, is that f your gal loses weight and you don't SHE WILL LEAVE YOUR FAT ASS!!!
            ON A NON WEIGHT RELATED ISSUE....HEY DID I LEAVE THE CAPS ON on? On a non weight issue I've been writting a lot more, most specifically the radio drama from a few years back. With any luck there might be some big news for the rest of the show coming up.
            As much as I'd like to sit here all day and write, there's an eliptical machine I need to hit up.
Till next time Party People!!!
Keep on a Chooglin!!!

The Starving Battle , or Why I love Gun violence!!

What's Shaking my fellow Americans and cants!
              It's that time of the year again, election season is apon us, or at least according to the memes on Facebook it is!
              Wait? It isn't? The election was over months ago? If that's the case why do I keep seeing words like socialist pass by my feed every other post? I thought we were over being against each other on a philosophical nature and were back to just being Americans.
              I guess not, what are we fighting about anyways? Oh yes , guns. Gun control, gun laws,gun rights, and while you're at it get off my lawn hippie. Ok I get there are some real differences in how we all feel about this but can we get back to what we do agree on? I'm pretty sure that even the most die hard gun owner doesn't want to see a bunch of innocent people get shot up. I'm also pretty sure that there are a bunch of responsible gun owners who doesn't want there rights trampled on because of a bunch of a-holes can't handle their shit.
               So why can't we get past this? I think it's because once again the powers that be found out that they can use a wedge issue to amp up ratings and sales without an election going on. Do you get it? This means that angry achy feeling in your gut that comes up when the news talks about guns will NEVER GO AWAY!
               As long as the corporations who run the media outlets can keep us fighting each other we will never have any peace in our lives. Keeping us scared means keeping us glued to their networks. If we stay glued to their networks they can keep selling ad time. As long as that ad money rolls in then it makes sense to keep us all scared!
               It's the same shit over and over again. Shit I even seen two posts about Jane Fonda this week and how much every American should hate her. You know what I rarely see on Facebook? This story:http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Gulf_of_Tonkin_incident

               I just want to pull my hair out sometimes ><

Red Light Martial Arts: Cracking wise while cracking skulls!

Concerning my next project,

                       A little bit about my current project. I'm doing a promo video for Red Light Martial Arts in downtown Phoenix! It's a great dojo that has just about everything you need if you wish to condition your body for strength and speed. Nick Edmonds runs the dojo along with this blog:www.redlightmartialarts.com .
                       I've studied martial arts in my youth, and to be honest it's something that I really miss. I miss learning something new, I miss pushing myself physically, I miss that satisfaction of knowing that my body is improving and getting stronger.  That's why I've started with some Tai Chi classes on Saturdays. Drop in classes ae only 15 bucks a class I believe but for those who wish to dedicate more time than just once a week there are contracts that will suit your needs.
                      Nick is a guy who dedicates his life to pushing himself as far as he can go in his art, not only as a student but as a teacher as well. I find this to be an admirable quality when one is looking for a teacher and I invite you to check out his blog or even a class (if you live in Phoenix like I do). You won't be disappointed, unless you like to give up on shit on a regular basis, in that case you will be disappointed but not in Nick, just in you!  =P

The first week is over!

Morning Party People!
               Wow what a week it has been! Frankly this week has been kind of sucky or at least suck-like in it's content yet somehow I still feel positive about the future. Some of you may call that being delusional but I can that being an optimist...that might be delusional.
                I have had a cousin that had to go to the hospital, been scammed twice for a total of 90 bucks on a night shift, might be charged for some damage to a cab that I may or may not have done, and on top of all of that there are dishes in the sink that still need to be washed! I tell you it's raining anvils and the only thing there is for lunch today are shit sandwiches. Could you imagine if you work place actually served shit sandwiches to the staff? I mean they would have to keep them away from the other food items but everyday at the commecary you'd see that one employee at the end of the line...serving shit sandwiches.
               "Hey Bob, whose the guy on the end of the lunch counter, no one ever goes over there."
               "Well Tom, that's Mike. He's the guy who serves shit sandwiches."
                "Are you kidding me? Bob who the hell would ever buy a shit sandwich?"
               "That's the thing Tom, no one buys them, they find their way to you one way or another." Just then we hear a woman in the lunch room violently spit out her sandwich while screaming.
                OK, enough about snack food. How about some good news! The good news is that I have a great gal in my life, I have a new project that I'm working on which I hope to share with you all very soon. I have an interview for a new job next Wednesday so hopefully I won't be having to drive these cabs for very much longer. With anew job and stable income I can devote more time to things like performing music as well as comedy! I did another open mic this week and I even brought my cousin a long. I had such a blast just hanging out with the other comics and shooting the shit with my cousin that I barely noticed my time on stage. Incidentally I think I'm getting better at stand up, I have a long way to go but I can feel it in my gut that I'm getting better.
               Till Next time Party People,
               Keep on a Chooglin!

Late night Musing, thoughts and hearts Fusing

Evening  Party People!
             Once again I'm writing from the skull that resides in the Dave Cave circa 2000 and now. Hey does anyone have something profound to say? Some thought or idea that's going to forever launch us into the essence of History? Perhaps make a wave so great that even another Ice Age wouldn't dare touch your immortality! It would be much like who ever made the Pyramids only with a much better slide show So anyone? Nope? Me neither.
              It's depressing isn't it? To not have the great idea? To not be "The One". It's something that all of us in our thirties have to some to realize. How did you deal with it? Did you have a family? A career that you wanted? A loving soul that loves you more than you could have ever imagined? I hope all of you have at least one of these, if anything all of us deserves a little happiness. If you had asked me a few years ago I would have said I had none of these things. That's why that desire to do something great always plagued me. I used to feel that it's the weak people in this world who have it easy, in the respect that they are truly powerless to change their lives. People who have a bit of resolve have no excuse, if our lives suck ass deep down we know it only does so because we let it.
              Like I said if you had asked me a few years ago...now a days I have most of those three things I had just mentioned. The thing is the closer that I get to what I want the truth becomes clearer and clearer," I need to step up and be the person who I wished I had known."
              Holy shit does that sound egotistical! Man I didn't think I could come across that douche-like in a blog but there you go. I wonder what I mean by that? I have an idea but it's a little foggy right now. Ok How about I start by describing the person who I'd always wanted to know.
              I always wanted to know someone who's encouragement I trusted. You see this is how I dismiss all the warm wishes that had been thrown my way over the years. It basically comes down to anyone who wasn't already in show business that wished me well I completely took for granted. Horrible to write I know, even worse to realize, trust me on that. You see I'd always wanted that buddy who was already a hit who knew what it took to make it tell me that I had what it took. You see that way I could take those in my life who love me for granted while at the same time completely undermining the need to believe in myself! Tada!
              I'm not writing this for sympathy, the point of this blog tonight was more of a proclamation. I'm going to be the friend that I always wanted to have. Nothing against my friends past or current. This has to do with pushing myself in a specific direction on a path to self improvement. I feel like I have a vault full of everything I've always wanted in life, meaning a vault of wants. Well it's time I turn those around and give those things I desired away to other artists out there in the net or ether.
              It might take some doing but I think I'm going to keep working on The Haven idea. I've seen t work before , I just need to figure how to give it life here o the net.
              Time for another baby step!
Till Next time Party People,
Keep on a Chooglin!

I got two things to say: Jack and Shit

OK so this morning I don't have so much to talk about Party People.
              So why the hell am I writing this? It's simple really, these blogs have become part of my morning wake up routine, or workout if you will. After I finish writing this I'll eat some breakfast then go for a walk. I used to take long walks everyday for a short period of time but then the summer hit. I know that's a cop out but holy moley does it suck trying to take an introspective stroll at 8 am when it's already 100+ degrees outside.
               Well it's a bit cooler out this time of the year so gone are any excuses to not get out there and walk off some of this tubby ass that I've been building up.
               I feel like shit because I keep missing ....I keep choosing not to go to any open mics for the past few weeks. It sucks, I hate myself more and more every week because I know that as crappy as they are there is no way I'm going to get better if I don't go. So what's the fucking hold up? I know I can be funny , I know I'll get a few laughs every time I go up, I know I get better every time I work out a joke, so what's the hold up?
               Well seeing as the whiskey that I put in my morning coffee is starting to kick in so shall my honesty. I've been trying to shed all the things about my past that I never liked. Now I know I can't shake the past itself, all I can do is work on the habits that have seem to come out of it. I rarely smoke anymore, that's a big thing, I eat healthier these days, that's another big thing. Yet some how my cowardice from the 90's still haunts me. My fear of not being any good.
               "But Dave, an actor who is afraid of failure? Please go on."
               I know it's true, they do exist  and yes its a self serving egotistical fear that's annoying if anything else. I won't go any further into any details for this because when it comes down to it, none of it matters. There's nothing to it but to do it.
               So how the fuck do we do this?
               I do have an idea! The Artist's Haven! What the Artist Haven is or was, was a group of artists who would get together to work on various projects in the same workspace. What this did was give a sense of camaraderie to a bunch of people who usually work in solitude. I found that it freed up a lot of creative energy and we always got a lot of good things out of each meeting.
               I totally could use another Haven but it might not be feasible for a bit, so what do we do until then? Well I was thinking of a Google Hangout. It's a video conference tool where we could all chat and even video chat. I'm curious to see if any of you out there in www world would be down for a hangout where we kind of only talk for a few minutes before we start our own projects the 50 minutes later we chat for a few more before getting back to work. Hit me up here if you're interested!

Till Next time Party People,
Keep on a Chooglin!